Good Things 2016

Today was the day of depression. Unlike other depression days, today I can’t put a finger on why I am sad. Too many things wrong. Too many worries and not an ounce of excitement in me about the new year, which in turn is helping me get to my new year resolutions, but for now, I decided to write about good things in this year. Not really want to think about things that went wrong this year.

  1. Kids, of course. Another year older. A lot grown-up. Honestly growing up deserves a post of its own. A lot has changed this year; The way they act, things they do, things they say, new challenges that come with their age, the excitement of turning 4. Perks of growing up as well. Overall, good year for the kids and I am happy for them. Of course, I think I could have been a better mother to them, but lets not go there for now.
  2. BFF. Honestly, today it feels like I am writing this post only to mention how V has been such a good friend to me. Another year, she was there for me for everything. Every little thing, every big thing. Every day. I almost lost connection this year when I stopped responding to her for couple of weeks. There were things I didn’t want to share with even her. Something about always spreading  bad news. But like the best friend forever she is, she didn’t give up on me. She pinged me every day, despite the lack of my response,  so very patiently. She is the best thing, really. And definitely top of my good things, this year.
  3. With kids little grown-up, we took our big out of town trip this year. Trip to San Diego. I still haven’t written about it, but I will get there. 🙂 It could have been perfect, but the trip was awesome and I will take that. I went on the big rides after a long time and I even went alone. Kiddos had fun with the rides too. Food was good; We went to a temple, drove by the ocean. It was awesome. No matter how the year turned out, I will always be happy about this first official family vacation.
  4. Home. Long over due but slowly and steadily is becoming what I dreamt it will be. I have a long way to go, but at the least, it’s a tiny step in the right direction.
  5. And lastly, changes in me. Well, at least for now I think it’s a good thing. Only time will tell. But I think I am a better me. I expect less, compromise more. I have started looking into some self-help readings that I know I need. First step is knowing I need help right. This is another thing that will hopefully end up on my resolutions list. I also think less of bad things from the past, but only because new ones keep me busy. Okay, stay positive, stay positive.

And that’s it. Now, I will continue with my day of depression and hope that 2017 will be a better year for me. Some miracle will happen and it hopefully will be.

 

Winter Break

It is the most awaited season of the year. Winter break. When taking break from work is okay and schools are closed. I took off work one week earlier than kids school closed this time, so I had time for myself to finish a lot of things on my to-do list. I thought too much wondering if I should take the extra week or not. I might regret taking the extra days off in the new year, but now I am super happy I did.

Like last year, I made a list of things to finish. Mostly home projects. About half of things my list were done and then kids school break began. And you know how much free time that leaves me with. Not much work done in the last two days, but that’s okay. Achu and I are sick, Abhi too. I need all of us to recover first so that we can also do some outdoor trips.

One thing that’s not going well at all is my exercise target. Lack of exercise is killing my mental state. And then when I get to do it, exercise is killing my physical state. It’s crazy. I stepped on the treadmill, 40 mins two days last week, felt awesome and then horrible when my leg pains kicked in. Rest of the week I couldn’t even walk. This is also the reason I quit on yoga. Although I love it so much, 90 mins of it exhausts me out. I have no energy for anything else after I get home and unfortunately I don’t have the luxury to just come home and relax for the night.

And then the cold and headache  joined. I haven’t exercised in a week. And that’s bothering me too. I feel so heavy, hate sitting down, eating rice and go around the day not feeling good about my body. I don’t know what middle ground I can find. I need to try.

In the home projects, I finally finished the bookshelf painting. Well, almost. I replaced the kitchen cabinet pulls as well, as part of my kitchen upgrade plans. You would think it’s easy, but it’s not for me. I managed to screw up 3 so far perfectly. I think I need to head back to the store on how to fix it. I still need to finalize on our countertop upgrades. I installed a new smoke alarm, replaced lights everywhere, got new festive lights and a new coat hanger to help with the kids mess. I tell you, every time I get to the use the drill bit and drill a hole where I need it, I feel so awesome. 🙂

I have also managed to read a book and I don’t think I am liking it much, but I will finish it. Just for the record.

But you know what I have consistently done every work day morning and super proud of? I had breakfast. I had healthy oats and fruits breakfast. Every day. Last week, I even made plans to eat healthy meals. This week for the lack of healthy food available, I am skipping eating. But breakfast is still on. This was one reason I was so longing to take a break. To take better care of myself. Past week I have been wrapped up in finishing stuff, but I need to focus on myself. Go back to yoga and eat healthy food. That’s my first priority. Last week definitely proved that I am ready for my break from work, for couple of months at the least. It’s time I put my needs first. It’s necessary.

Holiday Season

Holiday season is here. I am still focused on getting holiday lights up. One side of the house is lit up and I am still working on the other side. I had to pick and change these couple of times, try out different combinations and finally I think the long mini lights that went around the lawn did the trick. It kind of gives the festive look I was going for. 😊

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Friends of ours dropped by their kid’s winter train set last year and I have been waiting all year to put these up. I wish this station was real and was also lit up. I need to find some lights for this set. Seriously, I can’t get enough of lights. 😊

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I thought all of this was pretty already but then I realized what make it more pretty and serene is my lights with snow. We had snow twice last week and as you know, it was heavenly. Can’t get enough of it either. 🙂

Kids and I took off work/school both days and I am glad we did. Kids got a chance to go play in the snow and have fun. This time, they were outside when snow was falling, it was so much fun for them. I got them all snow ready and sent them out to play. I preferred to stay in the warm weather inside. I got beautiful view and can stay comfy with a cup of coffee. I am fine with that. 🙂

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wp_20161205_09_04_32_proSecond snow day was more snow, but we missed the snow fall. This time kiddos raided the backyard, building a mini snow-man (they didn’t have enough snow by then, it was all ice), throwing ice at each other. Lucky me, I could convince them their beach toys were also snow toys as well. Achu told me that it was a best snow day at the beach. 😊

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Sure I wish for more snow. But of course, after we all reached home safe and sound. I don’t want to be stuck in snow.

Holiday season also means, its festive everywhere. Huge decorated Christmas trees, lighting, carousel and train rides. We already went on few trips on the carousel. Its Achu’s favorite and this time Abhi is enjoying it too. And we did the train trip through the downtown already as well. It’s so much fun to see the kid’s faces light up on the rides. We should do more.

Kid’s school wraps up this week and they and I will have winter break away from school and work. Hope this winter will be a good memorable one. 😊