I am one such confused soul. I have never been this confused in my life, as to what way should I go. It turns out more responsibilities we have, more difficult it is to make decisions. I am talking about what I am going to do for the next few months. I make a decision and then I start seeing the downside of that option, I switch to another one, then switch back to another. Its been one long loop of going back and forth. 😦
So as of 12/10/12, 9:00 pm ,my decision was to go to India with mom for 3 months, (working from India) come back in April, join Murali (take a break) and we four go to India in July for the twins birthday. That’s pending approvals from office and other logistics worked out etc. Inside, it was killing me that I will have to away from work for over 6 months. I maybe working from India, but that’s not the same as being in my seat. All day Monday, this was what was on my mind. So, 9:10 pm, Murali recommended yet another option, that I keep working until March (with babies), we four move to Vancouver in March. I take a break from work, and we all go to India in July for the birthday stuff. Sounds fine too. Doesnt it? For a minute it did sound fine to me. After all, I could keep working. Well, not anymore. Now the burden of having to take care of two infants hits me (And its not the physical work that I am worried about. It’s the apprehension of first time parents on whom the twins ENTIRELY depend on. Get how big of a responsibility that is? ). So, now I want to go to India with mom. 😦
Dad just mailed me that I cant have the cake and eat it too. I have to compromise one way. And answer is very obvious to me. Because I think I need to give what’s best for Abhi and Achu, I do want to take the route of going to India with mom. But why is it so hard for me to stay with that option?
I am so close to putting an voting button in here. Vote your option and I will go with it. 😦